Writing about it sort of got lost in the flu scare, but I had my first appointment with my new endocrinologist on Wednesday afternoon. It was by far one of the most informative, comforting and terrifying Dr. appointments I have ever had.
I got a diagnosis, a Power Point presentation (which makes the geek part of me super happy) on just what my body is/could be doing, a lot of blood drawn, and the beginnings of a plan. I'm still processing it all.
The Dr. I saw is the head of an obesity & endocrinology clinic. Someone who has seen that traditional practices do a poor job of treating the whole patient, especially patients with weight/endocrine issues. I am obese, but instead of just looking at me and going "you should do something about that" and saying my overall tests were OK, it was treated this time like a disease, with causes, and treatments. Based on my old blood work, my symptoms (hair growth, blood sugar issues long ago, insulin issues now, weight, girly issues), I also got a diagnosis of PCOS.
The plan is to take a look at some new tests (hormones, Vitamin D levels, sugar levels, cholesterol), make sure the source of all of this isn't something else, and then treat the obesity and the insulin resistance. I have to see a nutritionist, go to some food related classes, and see the Dr. on a regular basis.
I'm scared, super scared, of what he could tell me. I'm scared of taking drugs to help with weight loss, I'm terrified that it won't work, I'm worried A won't be willing to help me make diet changes (though I'm relatively sure that when I see the nutritionist, she'll see I'm already eating pretty well), and well, I'm just plain afraid. This is new, this is different, this is change, and I'm not always so good with change.
My next appointment is in a couple of weeks. Until then I am trying to tell myself that I am not alone. I wouldn't be doing this if I didn't feel like I had support. I am doing this to make sure that I am healthy, and here for my daughter as long as possible. So I can remind her about the hell she is putting me through with potty training.